The greatest half-asser who EVER LIVED ([info]bigguy01) wrote,
2005-08-17 03:19:00
I found and watched The Beach tonight. Which is a movie I actually liken to Fight Club. Yeah, Travis.  But it does the same thing for me.  Namely, makes me feel like I'm not doing what I want to be doing. I want to be living so hard that I colapse into normalcy and find it comfortable. I need to contrast my life now with one so diffrent from this that this seems foreign. I need to make sure I'm not missing anything before I get old and loose my life. I mean my animus, not my actual living. I mean my spirit and my lust to see what there is. I'm gonna have to travel. Throw myself out of my life and loose all the comfort it has. Combine Fight Club and the Beach and American Beauty to a degree. To loose everything. For a bit. To find myself or maybe a variation of me.


Fuck you guys, I know how rediculously pretensious this is. I just don't care, because I feel really sereous about it just now. Hell, even I'll laugh at this in the morning but it's awesome that film can do this to me. I love feeling so strongly, even about something this silly.


I wanna be in love, man. Like this. That would be great.


One day. 


-M

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[info]cerebralsex

August 17 2005, 13:40:42 UTC 6 years ago

"ridiculously"

"serious"

no its not pretensious, silly rabbit. i know just how you feel. we must grab the hory bull!

my dog shit on the floor again.

[info]skeenskool

August 18 2005, 06:59:29 UTC 6 years ago

you mean you shit on the floor again.
oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

hey travis.whats up.tell your woman to give me ponies.

[info]cerebralsex

August 18 2005, 11:17:43 UTC 6 years ago

she hasn't forgotten! i think shes still looking for one of them! shes sleeping...ill ask her when she wakes up!

[info]meredithsfriend

August 19 2005, 02:26:00 UTC 6 years ago

i just saw that you gave me a comment sometime ago! you see, i don't get notified when i get comments and stuff cos that email address has been dead for a while! YOU'LL GET YOUR PONIES!!!

[info]skeenskool

August 19 2005, 19:06:18 UTC 6 years ago

hehehe..just wonderin:D
YAY PONIES!!!

[info]amazingangstboy

August 18 2005, 12:10:09 UTC 6 years ago

I didn't get that vibe from the Beach, but then again I get a serious urge to reach through the tv set and punch leo dicaprio in the face whenever I see him in a movie, so that might be why.
As for the rest, as long as your motivated to change, I'd say it's not pretentious.

[info]bigguy01

August 20 2005, 05:57:46 UTC 6 years ago

I am gonna call you back reeeeely soon!



Sorry I didn't answer, I was playin' Halo II and I only just remembered to call back.



-M

[info]amazingangstboy

August 20 2005, 11:30:59 UTC 6 years ago

I called you like 3 days ago, Mario. How long were you playing Halo?
Oh, I can't come out and play today, since I'm spending sometime with my dad. But I'm off again tomorrow, so we should chill then.

[info]bigguy01

August 20 2005, 17:58:37 UTC 6 years ago

10-4. Actually, I'm gonna play pool Monday night if ya'd be interested in that...


-M

[info]meredithsfriend

August 19 2005, 05:00:24 UTC 6 years ago

www.ntashadrake.com

Right on!

[info]bazilla

August 19 2005, 14:08:06 UTC 6 years ago

still haven't seen it but people say I should. filmed mostly in southeast thailand I think. Lets drive through central america. theres no reason it can't happen.

[info]bigguy01

August 20 2005, 05:57:02 UTC 6 years ago

Get to town, dude. Good times and planning shall be had.


-M
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